you have permission to use the wrong word
to take the easy way out
to walk away when you realize it's a waste of time
you won't believe this but it's ok to throw away politeness
there's not enough time left for sitting on your hands wishing for something better.
you have permission to fart in public, to change your mind, to say how you really feel
to not compromise
who likes pineapple on pizza anyway?
say no to obligatory dinners with people who make you feel bad
let go of people who wished you were different
if only you had more money
if only you were as much fun as so and so
if only you wouldn't wear that shirt or those shoes
if only you didn't let yourself go so much
if only you didn't drink so much
if only if you drank more often!
if only you didn't have bad knees or listen to old music or like that tom hanks movie or
insist on getting your own popcorn because you don't like to share.
yeah. fuck those people.
you have permission to say fuck that noise and whatever whispers that will come after.
let your soft fat body go out in public, eat popcorn shrimp in the food court and get your ice cream in a cone even though you know it'll end in certain disaster.
be the sticky faced three year old you know you still have rattling inside of you.
buy the $8 orange juice because it tastes good.
buy the $2 concentrate can because it tastes like your childhood.
go to the grocery store and buy nothing but $50 worth of juice because you can. give it to people you meet on the street. hand out dixie cups of it to marathon runners. join the race for half a mile or however long your body will take you then go to a bar and order a ridiculous drink full of sugar and booze and fruit.
feel free to drink it or throw it at the next person who warns you about diabetes or the person who tells you how juicing cured their cancer or how chia seeds makes them less hungry.
throw your beverage at people who offer nutritional counseling without your want or permission.
take a nap dangerously close to bedtime.
wake up in a panic at midnight cursing you and your bad decisions.
make more bad decisions.
because life without them isn't life.